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waw ok auch, so this question have been circling on my mind since like a couple hours ago, the time when i heard it (again). Well, again, because probably people had been throwing this question since the first time i choose it (even I questioned myself that time) but I only remembered being asked frontally to my face twice that i know of, the first time is from a friend’s father, who i can totally tolerate and understand because he know me and i ‘know’ how (un-openminded) he is, but this one.. the recent person that have just throw it in my face come from this big fat ugly pale guy that I’ve just met! (technically he met me) hell he doesn’t even remember my momma when my aunt mentioned her name and he spit it out in the open
just. like. that.

as it cut me from the inside with shame because he said it infront of my aunts, who was just finished asking me about my current part time job (and my future ones), i was shocked and then comes the anger. heeellll who do you think you rrrr? you cant just throw a question like that you rude fat ugly guy! but then i realize, o.. you see that’s actually what in most of everybody’s mind.. theyr just polite enough not to say it OUTLOUD. so the hell with this guy, he’s got issues, he’s got BIG FAT MANNER issue but then again he’s probably right to say that judging by the fat contents he has he’s probably got alll the nutrition he needs (and *a little* too much).

I tell you what big guy, “saya mau kerja yang ga bikin gendut kayak om”. puhlease he maybe got the money and the food but he certainly dont have a happy life, i just knew (a little observation on this Homo sapiens behavior). I may have a few doubts in the past about this ‘job’ (not future) thingy, but then as I always say in my prayer back then “i hope this is the right one for me” and it is!

I may study out of my interest, i’m not fond of all the biology stuff but it does an amazing subject to be (in my case, have to) know of! well hello it’s about life.. it’s about things that are ALIVE and what are you trying to do day after day after weeks and years? STAYING ALIVE (now i sound like the hiv-aids campaign, which remembered each year yesterday, happy aids awareness day! stay safe). and oh wow now I can even explain what HIV is! what type of virus (retro) and why is it so dangerous (it can reverse it’s genetic matter to dna which the body will recognize it as oneself) HA! and how do i know those? because i study THE CRAZY WORLD OF GENETICS and thank you Lord I sucked at it and got a B! praise to God.

Now, the question is what r you going to work with this degree on biology, which i assume he meant what am i gonna do with it in THIS COUNTRY. because in our beloved country we dont see pure science as an honorable and full of prospective study, no no we DONT do those, we DONT learn what’s happening in our universe (problems) from our own home, no we USE the one (technique, theories, whatevs) that’s already been mapped or typed or published out there from the much more advance and ‘richer’ country THEN we try to match it to our own! if it dont fit, well then we dont know what to do! or just push it until it can match on it’s own (on God’s will)! YUP WE’RE A COUNTRY OF A BUNCH OF DODOS AND LABORS, WE CANT DO STUFF IF IT WERENT TOLD OR LAID OUT OR EXPLAINED BEFORE, WE LOVE OFFICE HOURS BECAUSE IT TELLS AS WHAT TO DO (or be) AND WE GET PAID AND GOT INSURANCE FROM IT! WHOOPIE!

what. a. life.

oh dont get me wrong, I myself must introspect myself. see, how many times have i ‘work’ as a conservation biologist that i wanna be? let’s see hmm i have about 6 experiences, and let’s see how many ‘advance and richer country’ peeps that r involve (or in most, become my boss)? FIVE! FIVE OUT OF SIX, and that 1 work experience is because i was interning for the GOVERNMENT and as much as i want to say i have a blast, yeah I HAVE MY MIND BLASTED!

sooooooo, get it?

no? okay let me put this simple and blunt. We are a growing (developing) country. we only been ‘unlabored’ for like what (2013-1945=68) 68 years, whoa that’s actually a big number. well i mean, for a country that has tooo many challenges (separate islands, loaded amount of natural resources) it is OKAY to be dodos for awhile. NOW HENCE THE ‘FOR AWHILE’.

but we cant just relay on other country forever. (yeah why not? we got good money? I’m an engineer and i guarantee I can get min 10-20 million rupiah a month for working ‘hard’ for those guys. I’m a social based major and I get paid a lot to deal with the masses and to handle our people by ‘them’). well suuuure U are :) you also wish that in the next decades there will still be ‘goodies’ in our country for the people who paid you to ‘work’ with. you wish that allll the food will always be there at the market, the branded clothes, the gadgets, so you can retire at homes watching tv playing games while the kids go to the same corporate job that you do, or government that paid well because there’s taxes from those corporate job (or the ‘easy money’ from the shutthef*up) right?

well guess what? we scientist DONT BELIEVE that. nah.. no chemist nor physicist believe that ‘the energy in one place will always be available and supplied, no change and transferable it will always be there for you’ (if you dont get the sarcasm then you better go back to school and ask your teacher…err no, just google ‘energy’ and there’ll be this bunch of guys called newton and einstein with lots of equations in it.. read.)

the point is we have to start WORKING FOR OURSELVES. it’s not about WHERE r you gonna work, how much the sallary, and what benefits that you’ll get TO SURVIVE, what matter is about every job that’s expected to become, the ones that you’ll do, will be for a greater good, for everyone to have some, FOR EVER. and i may add? pure science is the answer. for they’re the ones understanding what’s already out there and we’re the ones who called our self ‘SCIENTIST’ we found things.. well at least we tried. we try to solve a problem from deep it roots from the very atom, molecule it composed of so the society and human survival will be the fittest.
(r fellow scientists out there screaming “you fooollll we dont have the mooneeey to found things, we dont even have the tools to take picture with to prove us scientist!”)

as i was saying, we’re still new to the world, we’re like toddlers. it’s okay to learn (and take) some things from the adults, but in the end we have to stand from our own two feets, think with our own brain, and use the blessings, no matter how limited and confusing they are, to make us a person, that worked in harmony just like a body in sync for every cells in the body to stay alive. (and try as you may, as i’m noting this to myself, dont infect other stronger body just to keep your cell alive, no, well go infect one to grow an immune system and bring it back to our still growing body) *hopefully everyone gets this :)

ps: - sorry all a biologist need is a microscope to prove we’re a biologist and we’ve got lottss of picture with it :p
— kenapa pake bahasa inggris? yaaa kan katanya kita harus ‘ngambil’ dari orang-orang yang sudah maju ini dan bahasa internasional yang digunakan adalah bahasa inggris. jadi kalo kalian mau maju dan tidak bisa berkomunikasi yah wassalam.
—- last but not least, I’m so in love with the living things that it’s so hard to watch it die. so conservation biology is the right one for me :) (die=cease to exist forever. extinct)
—— oh! oh! one more thing! please let me remind you this disney or tumblr quotes or some saying phrase: that EACH ONE OF YOU IS SPECIAL AND UNIQUE, YOU ARE HERE FOR A PURPOSE THAT ONLY YOU CAN DO, so GET THE JOB THAT YOU WANT TO. the one that suits and use what you’ve got best. Even if you dont get the money, at least you got the fun, that’s the pleasure of life right?




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Soo, okay let me get my views on this one. Briefly, i think this novel is no other than a romance novel. uniquely (or weirdly) it takes on a very different (and disturbing) ‘type’ of obstacle why these two lovebirds cannot be together. it’s not forbidden love nor vampire-human relationship, but it’s…sex. you see that intercourse the ones that you can produce babies out of it or something that supposedly viewed as a ‘good thing’ when it comes to human relationship. so yeah, it’s interesting how E L James can make it as a horrible horrible thing (said it twice, cause really it just awful). but as the ‘scenes’ goes by you just gone numb, it’s icky at first (truthfully, even it’s too vulgar for moi) cause it really does erotic, no sweetyhearty no loveydovey just…that. As a whole, it’s a good book, the plot lined up slowly so you really do can feel the struggle insides Ana and her two innergoddes-subconcious thingy while the erotic scene brings out the conflicts. Ends pretty good also. Just hope they dont make exaggerating movies out of it -_- coz just reading the way Ana talks i can sense “here comes Bella number two”

Soo, okay let me get my views on this one. Briefly, i think this novel is no other than a romance novel. uniquely (or weirdly) it takes on a very different (and disturbing) ‘type’ of obstacle why these two lovebirds cannot be together. it’s not forbidden love nor vampire-human relationship, but it’s…sex. you see that intercourse the ones that you can produce babies out of it or something that supposedly viewed as a ‘good thing’ when it comes to human relationship. so yeah, it’s interesting how E L James can make it as a horrible horrible thing (said it twice, cause really it just awful). but as the ‘scenes’ goes by you just gone numb, it’s icky at first (truthfully, even it’s too vulgar for moi) cause it really does erotic, no sweetyhearty no loveydovey just…that. As a whole, it’s a good book, the plot lined up slowly so you really do can feel the struggle insides Ana and her two innergoddes-subconcious thingy while the erotic scene brings out the conflicts. Ends pretty good also. Just hope they dont make exaggerating movies out of it -_- coz just reading the way Ana talks i can sense “here comes Bella number two”


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